Thursday, September 30, 2010

Anxious

Our transfer on September 18th went well. I tested for two days on hpts and got my first ever so faint positive line on Friday at 3pm, just 6 days after our transfer. This is the soonest I have got a positive hpt. It is so funny how as surrogates, we obsess over these things. And of course one test is just not enough, you must pee and then pee some more until the lines on the test get darker. Once they are good enough and you are thinking "OMG, I am really pregnant!" you must go get a digital so it can tell you itself. Nothing like the word "pregnant" to reassure you.

Tomorrow is our beta, another thing to obsess over. It seems with IVF there are often chemical pregnancies, which I am not so sure exactly what they mean. The original beta doesn't properly double after a series of labs that are taken and it is determined the pregnancy is not viable. On the surrogacy board that I participate in, there seem to be quite a few of these going on. It is sad to see this happen to these ladies, they are all jazzed by the + hpt and then comes the low beta which prepares them for the bad news that it is not a viable pregnancy.

Right now I am a little nervous, I am naturally a worry wart and keep thinking "What if my number is low?" At this point a low beta for me would be a very bad thing since I have been getting +hpt for a week now. But then again, I have been increasingly getting more nauseous which tells me it is going to be okay. Tomorrow is one of my IF's birthday, a great number would be the best present!

Today we got a break in the weather, after 5 days of high heat I woke up to rain. At first I was a little confused at what the noise was, it almost sounded like our heater or a/c running. As I got closer to the bathroom I could hear what was clearly rain falling, coming from the open window. The thunder and lightning is always something I look forward to, I just love it!

It is 8:55pm and the yawning has already begun. The past three days I have not been able to stay up past 9:30. It looks like it is about that time to turn on my new favorite show, Criminal Minds and fall asleep part way through it. Goodnight!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Time is Flying!

Originally my transfer date was set for September 20th, it has now been moved to the 18th. On the 15th the doctor extracted 7 eggs from the donor, and only 4 of those were good quality. Out of those 4, the embryologist inseminated 3 of those eggs. It only takes one good embryo, but the amount of eggs retrieved was a little disappointing to me. During my last cycle twice the amount were retrieved and there were 10 embryos to work with. I have hope though, everything has been so great this cycle.

The meds are different than what I have used before. The heprin has created bruising at the injection sites on my tummy. I got a great explanation for why that is happening from one of my most favorite nurses, thanks Deb! The IM injections on my behind have been cake! My husband is the one who administers them and he does a better job than any that have been administered by medical staff. Just another reason I think he is so awesome.

Last weekend the Wild Wolves tore up the Kodiaks 35 to 6! I love football season, we keep busy, busy, busy. This weekend we will be missing the game due to the transfer, the team mom is taking Eric Friday night and will be taking him to the game. Isaac is going to go hang out with his auntie.

We also had a great night at Aunt Janny and Uncle Gib's house, always fun and lots of people. Karaoke/paintball/waterslide and of course BBQ. It is our home away from home up there. Monday I started getting a sore throat, I thought it may be from too much singing. It has slowly turned into a wee bit of a cold, it isn't really all that bad.

Right now I sit here writing my blog when I should be writing a paper about the examination and evaluation of the creation of U.S. law. Although the history of law is fascinating to me, I am going to procrastinate once again when it comes to writing my paper; I will start it in the morning and finish it just in time to pick the kids up from school. Yep, that is how I do it. I may re-evaluate this stategy if it fails me, until then it is working out for me.

I haven't seen much of my husband today. He left for work this morning got back this evening just in time to get a service call and have to leave again. Out in the field he gets another call and heads over there. He is now on his way home to give me my shot and then back out into the field for yet another call! Normally it isn't like this, they just have quite a few crews out working.

I hear him coming down the street now, it is time for my progesterone :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Good things are happening!

Since I last posted I have without a doubt found my perfect match! I have had quite a few appointments, just today I had the lining of my uterus checked, it is 6mm. I have another appointment set for Monday to get a re-check. We are doing a fresh cycle, so the egg donor and myself have to be in sync with one another as far as our menstraul cycles go. Although this is not my first cycle, I learn something new every time. The entire process is amazing!

So the couple I ended up choosing...the IFs from L.A. It was definately the right choice for both of us. Since we have matched we either talk, text or email daily. I love them, they are hands on and very involved. I got to meet M's mom, she is a super sweet, fun lady.

The meds were started on day 1 of my cycle, Sept 2nd. So far I am just taking the estrace, prenatals and aspirin. I am on standby waiting to find out when the injections of heparin begin. My last cycle, which was in April of 2007, I stared down the needle for a good 15 minutes before administering the injection. The injections weren't that bad, I don't know what came over me.

School is going great! I am so glad I went back to my original degree program; criminal justice is definately the career field that I am most passionate about. I have managed to maintain a fairly high GPA, this is something I am very proud of.

The kids are all doing great. Andrew only had a two week summer because he is on the ILP program at Charter. I am so proud of his efforts and his grades he has worked so hard for. He is a smart young man and always knows how to make his momma laugh. Lil Eric is moving right along in the 5th grade, it is hard to believe that he will be headed to junior high next year! Isaac is adjusting to life as a second grader, he had a rough first week of school, but he is getting better.

My husband, Eric, is continuing to work hard to support us and is still my #1 supporter. I couldn't ask for more. I feel like I truly have been blessed with my family.